I finally see the way out

I finally see the shadow of the meaning of love.
Han, i think, i love you so damn much already. I know we aren't very close but we do talk to each other when we're together though sometimes we are shy too. I am so needing you everytime. I can't lie to my feelings, and i do realise that i am very serious with it. Losing of you from my life, will give me a massive shock that may cause me a bit different than before. I feels no regret to love you but i really mad because you have makes me fall in love at you. I wish i could give you at least a kiss for the punishment. God gives you to be near me, because God want to see me happy. Lots of the time before i met you, i am so useless and always being hurt by boys. My ex boy friend was damnly hurt me because he dumped me. I won't and i hope you too, will not do that to me and neither to me. I will wish for your happiness. I never been like this before. Waitig for a guy about 5 months. Its kind of challanging a bit and i manage to keep it till now. Love you han so damnly much!