Inaa

Hm, i am really don't know what to do. My feelings occurs when i get close and far from him. But when he is with other girl, it is suddenly disappear which makes me gives up and jealous. I know that i can't make him smile. But i will try hardbto get him. Hm, is this what we call as real love? Hopefully it is a yes. But, fate won't make us together because of our religions. Nicole told me, it is better if i find other boy. Is that means i have to forget everything about han? I feels like i am useless and so hopeless... I am not desprate but i don't know why i can be like this. This love is always flowing on my mind. But it will changed if something make it rough.
I love han about 5 months already... But i still didn't get my love back. I try to make him smile..cheer him. But, i think it is useless. I don't think he does love me. I am deserve not to be love by everyone. Han is my inspiration. Han makes me change. As you all also know, han is not really handsome or cute. My friend said he is ugly. But for me, the uglyness won't be counted in love. He is just everything to me. He is so precious to my life.
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Later at afternoon, we will go out buy the class stuff with tchr bib. Hopefully it is going to be fun!! Hehehe....i love yah~~i mean i love you all...
For shen,
get well soon and study hard. Be the best father. I always will be there for you when you need my help. It is my pleasure^^